Did you ever notice how one thing leads to another and another - like how When January ends here comes February then March, etc...
Now that September is here October is right around the corner and that is one month that I do not really look forward to. Don't get me wrong I now have two things to celebrate in October, Eoin and my birthday's, but I still think of October as a generally bad month.
For the longest time I really hated October - In 1985 my father passed away on Halloween and ever since I have not looked forward to this month.
Now we are attempting to plan a birthday party for Eoin, a costume party, where he can invite all of his friends but with the weather the way it is lately I am almost afraid that it will be too cold to have an outdoor party but who knows - maybe it will be 80 degrees outside.
The closer it comes to October the more I think of the past and the future - I want to be able to give my boys more than I had growing up and thankfully they do not have to share a birthday.
I have heard a number of people say that twins have a special bond growing up - apparently these people never had a twin. When I was younger I very rarely spent time with my twin brother - now that we are older we talk once in a while. Every other year I will call him and wish him a happy b-day and he usually calls the years that I don't. I forget who's year it is but one way or the other we will talk on or about our birthday.
If you are wondering where I am going with this - so am I.
I guess that this is part of my yearly ritual where I think of my past and wonder about the future. I have learned that what was true yesterday is not necessarily true today. You can go to sleep one night and wake up 8 hours later and life has changed. I still get sad when Halloween comes around but I now have two very good reasons to enjoy the day. I hope to teach Eoin and Liam all that I know and learn from them when they get older.
Now that Di and I regularly attend church I know that when your time is up on Earth, you have a better brighter future ahead. I know that while life is a challenge - that challenge is there to help you grow and to push you into being the best person you can be and I am thankful for it.
I kind of remember an old phrase that goes something like this "Live for today as tomorrow will never come and yesterday is past".
To Today - I hope you have a fun and exciting time with your families.
Walt
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I can understand why you are not fond of October and why you associate it with a sadness. Maybe you can make October a month to think about your Dad and the wonderful moments that you had with him- the reasons that you love him- and all the good times that you had. Make October a tribute to him- and perhaps you can learn to love the month of October. You love the colder weather and the beauty of Fall. And I find it to be a very manly month- fall colors- football- fall foods. Your boys are better for all that you are and for all that you do. You are a loving father.
hugs
thanks for the wonderful comments.
I know that there are many things that should make me happy and I really am - When I am alone I start to think about the past and all of the things that I will never have.
As I look to the future with my boys and Diane I want to make sure they never miss out on anything.
I look forward to building snow forts and having snow ball fights.
I look forward to taking them Trick or Treat.
I look forward to taking them to the museums.
I look forward to walking in the forest preserve.
I really look forward to telling them about their Grandfather and making sure, like he did, that they have all of the skills necessary to live a normal happy life.
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